Fork in the road

Yesterday I heard a sermon on how there are two states a person must be in: single, or dating to marry. If you're dating for the sake of a relationship and not to marry, or dating just to have the perks of a relationship (romance etc.) then you need to quit it.

Yesterday was Jess' & I 3 year aniversary of our Cypress trip which started to the ball rolling. Yesterday we also decided to put our foot down whether to stay together or not. We both have our own doubts of whether this is the right time, or if we're both ready.

It's a tough choice, of course. Nothing is harder than a break-up of any sort. We've been having problems ever since year 2, and sometimes the arguments escalate to a level where we wish we weren't together. But something keeps us together.

I'm in a fork in the road. And I'm scared. I don't know where life is going to lead me. I must have faith in God. I'm anxious, and afraid.

Bored

So yesterday was bible study @ my house. It was fun. Good laughs, and good times.

We went to pick up Leo from Joyce station in Caleb's huge Ford Tank. All 5 of us went, since it was a 7 seater. Adrian and Julian continuously bickered like a married couple on the verge of divorce, about Adrian's flaking tendencies, while Raph & I tried to have a conversation over the noise generated by JulePoon.

I went in my shorts and t-shirt, plus sandles, sporting a Nammer boy look. Haha.

Today, is a snail-paced day @ the office. There's a certain team mate who constantly bugs me about this and that, concerning a prototype I've been working on in wonderful [script langauge="JavaScript"]. I tear out a patch of hair whenever he leaves my cubicle. I swear, every 30 minutes he would come over for an issue. To make matters worse, he bugs other teams about the SAME project, requesting they go out of protocol and do his bidding. Very very ma fan.

I'm still a bit sick, which makes matters worse. Thusrday...day before Friday. *sigh* Life has reached a new low.

March of the Penguins

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Saw March of the Penguins yesterday. What an amazing film with amazing footage.
Heartbreaking at times. For example, when an egg goes astray, cracks, and freezes, claiming life within in front of the father penguin.

Made me think about how wonderous God's creation is. There is NO WAY that the mating and birth process of penguins could have happened by chance and through an "evolutionary process." The complexity, care, and love expressed by the penguins is truly astonishing, not to mention the intelligence.

There is one plot hole however. This film is said to be a "story of love," however, the parent penguins do nothing when their baby penguins are being hunted by an unknown bird that resembles a seagull.

This is a somewhat minor hole when compared to the sacrifice and care the mother and father go through for one egg. The father first marches 70 miles, finds a mate, mates, and then stays with the egg as the mother marches 70 miles back to the ocean to feed. The father goes through 3 months of harsh winter (-58C) without food, protecting the egg and keeping it warm against the arctic winds. The mother returns, and the father goes off to get his own food.

It would truly be an adventure to travel to an exotic environment and observe beauty. And while I'm at it, make a documentary! Before I do, I'd like to see the Northern Lights.

Civic

The Civic has been in the garage since Sunday without moving. So when my sister tried to start it, it made a coughing noise and wouldn't budge. I tried to pump the gas and turn the ignition, but the dang thing just sputtered out smoke. So we called Handyman Uncle Ken Chiu over, and voila, with a twist of the key it works. He has some kinda magic touch.

Pushing away

In my current state, I feel like shit. I feel as if I'm pushing my friends away, and it's not even intentional.

Last Saturday I got mad infront of a group of friends I never get mad at. So, as a result, they thought something must be really wrong, when in fact, it wasn't a big deal. However, it was such a serious problem that they thought they should talk to me about it, in all seriousness. A friend of mine convinced them not to mention anything.

Yesterday, I blew up @ a friend for making an insensitive comment. Today he emailed me back to say he was sorry, and that the way I blew up wasn't "warranted" but it's ok.

And lastly, but not absolutely not least, I lost my temper @ Jess. *sigh* I feel like such an asshole lately. Why? I don't know. This is not my nature, yet I'm throwing flames left, right and center. My spiritual life has reached and all time low and I don't know what to do.

No one will probably read this any time soon, but I'd like to say I'm truly sorry, for the record.

Nu

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So I tried Vancouver's best new restaurant of 2005 on Tuesday: Nu. Google maps lead me to a dead end after taking a left turn onto Richards from Pacific. Bad Google maps. I ran into the same problem going to the Cannery. Bad Google maps, bad!

So I give this place 3 stars out of 5. "Why? It's suppose to be the best!" Only of 2005, my friend.

First off, our table sucked. It was a small round table with 2 swivel chairs. And according to A-Train, the chairs were redone with new fabric by Nu. Talk about a budget. You were not able to adjust the chair to your own will, and to top it off, these chair's backs only went as high as your lower back. So no leaning back was permitted, unless you wanted to fall ass backwards onto the neon-lit floor. Oh yea, and that annoying neon light didn't help the ambiance.

Second, I requested a window seat. But nooOOooOO. Got one smack dab in the middle of the restaurant.

Ok, the food was good. I ordered a raw scallop cold dish, trout and chocolate truffle cake. Jess ordered ahi tuna, steak, and apple crumble. The actual names of the dishes make them sound much more appetizing than they really are. Don't get me wrong, the food was great, but not excellent. My favorite was the scallop appetizer. Cilantro covered every bite of raw scallop, and the orange juice added a light tangy flavor to the dish. Top it off with some greens that looked like weeds. Jess' tuna was good too. The pieces were seared just enough so that the middle was still raw. 6 pieces were placed on top of warm lentils in a unique sauce. I think the appetizers were the best part of the meal.

My trout reminded me of the times I went fishing on Saturna Island, where we caught fish and ate it the same night. The fish was served atop peas and challots in a yellow cream sauce which tasted like a combo of mushrooms, onions and basil. Jess' steak was conveniently sliced into 5 pieces and was marinated in a flavorful blend of herbs and spices.

The desserts were sugary and raised our blood sugar levels off the charts.

So that was Nu. In my opinion, I could have gone to Aqua Riva, spent 1/2 the amount and be more satisfied with the experience. The food @ Nu is overpriced, and the fact that it had a set menu for Feb. 14 was stupid. In other words, all the dishes were cooked in bulk. For a causal/fine dining restaurant, I expected more.

Botton line: Great food and crappy atmosphere. I would not go again.

Problem #1

I was hoping nothing would go wrong for the next few weeks. But, alas, bad luck was in my house, laughing.

The gaberator in the kitchen broke. Damx! I had to call a family friend to come over @ 10pm and take a look. Aarrrrrrrg!

Other than that, everything else has been going smoothly, other than the pile of laundy that needs to be taken care of. Also, the kitchen seems unusually dirty lately. It's not a huge mess, but it's the small things that bug me, like dried juice on the island, or bits of rice on the floor. Hmmmm. In addition, there's a mountain of clothes on my floor in my room I must sort and fold and organize! AAAAAH!

Tonight holds a Valentine's dinner and a secret restaurant. I really do hope it's good. Critics rave about it, and one friend of my mine says it's "weird." I'm going because I hope it'll be a special dinner at a nice, but not so heavy on the wallet, place. And something unique, ya know? Mmmmm. Can't wait.

This may be the last Valentine's I spend with Jess. I hope it's a good one.